Kafarah

"If you put your whole trust in Allah, as you ought, He most certainly will satisfy your needs, as He satisfies those of the birds. They come out hungry in the morning, but return full to their nests." (Tirmidhi)

Yesterday,
was a truly a bad day for me,
a day that I could remember for a long time.
Never feel so depressed like that.
I feel like I want to punch somebody face,
really hard, so many times!

But, for a moment,
that feeling fade away,
I get your SMS,
That time, I feel tremendously happy,
I can forget everything and focused only on your SMS.
On every word.
I smile,
once that day.

Think that you still remember me,
think you miss me,
like what I feel now, still miss something about you.

But today,
I realized,
It just a sign,
to show me that you are happy,
without me.

I should see it coming,
I should read the sign.
But I mislead by my feeling,
once more.

But I still remembered you said,
"Its kafarah, for our sins."

Whatever you think about me,
Whatever you say I am,
deep inside I know,
you still love me.

I'm sorry,
for make it hard for you,
It was a great moment for me,
making you smile,
for a while.